A lot of things factored into my decision to begin UnTapU, my own EFT business, while I continued to work for the company I’m with now. For one thing, I kept hearing people talk about their problems and what came to mind was always that “They should just tap on that, it’d help so much!” I sprinkled it into my work with the children and found success, as well as with the parents who were open to trying it. Success! And my passion for it kept growing. I’m smart, driven, ambitious – I want to be a success on my own.
I’m not sure I do so well with authority figures, which was another reason for branching out on my own, to do something I’m passionate about without reporting to someone else or bound by any paperwork except what I wanted for my own reasons. But I also came to accept that my job has an income ceiling, and I’m a single mom with an independence streak ten miles long, so I needed to do something. I want to build and own my dream home, have music lessons for my son, sports lessons or equipment he might need (my little rising baseball star/future president!), travel, spend more time with family out of the state, whatever I want to do! So I started UnTapU at https://tapintoempowerment.us so I could begin doing just that – be independent while also helping people learn about something I’m passionate about.
But the reality of a start up business is that there’s an incubation period before things grow and it can be considered a success. I’m determined to have that happen quickly but I also need my job in order to do all that and live on my own, support my son. And in recent months, the lay offs have mounted. In April it started, before that, my beloved team was completely replaced, and things have gone downhill since then. More layoffs in August, and yesterday, even more. We got these random texts to come in yesterday at various times, and the gossip mill revealed that we knew of at least 9 of us meeting individually with a supervisor but nothing else was said. I knew, more layoffs, that’s all that could mean.
So of course I’m scared, anxious, panicked. My stomach was in knots, my breathing was kind of shallow and my chest felt tight – thank you asthma! I knew I was on the chopping block. Things haven’t been going well with the company for a while, our team had low numbers, issues on the team, and I haven’t been happy with the company for over 6 months. I considered that it might be Law of Attraction at work – I’d be laid off because I’d been unhappy, wishing for something different, even actually starting UnTapU. I would be getting what I put out there all this time, in the form of a lay off. And I know myself, I knew I’d probably go in with a racing heart, facial expressions leaving nothing to the imagination, cheeks blazing, and I might possibly cry in despair at job loss with few prospects.
I looked first at jobs, applied to a couple, put my resume out there, and in searching, I saw how bleak the options were, and knowing the job situation, I knew I’d be competing with many current coworkers for the same position. At first I turned to the chip bag and the candy bowl, then I had to chastise myself for ignoring my own advice. Why wouldn’t I just tap on these feelings?!?
So I tapped on my fear, my anxiety, my anger at myself for anything I’d done – large or small – to bring this about. I tapped about being scared to lose everything and be homeless without a job, not having UnTapU succeed as quickly as I might need it to if I was just laid off with a severance package. Tapped on not providing for myself or my son, having nowhere to turn. Whatever I could think of before that meeting, I tapped on it. Even the drive to the office, I was tapping.
I got there to find a coworker I’d known to have had a meeting scheduled quieter than usual, and she commented on how nice I looked. “I figured if I’m getting laid off, I’m gonna look damn good while it happens!” I told her, and she laughed, agreeing that it had been her thoughts as well this morning. I chatted with our front office and records clerk, then went back with the person asking for the meeting, only to find another supervisor and two faces totally unfamiliar to us at our office. Yup, that’s another nail in the coffin that is this job I thought, then they introduced themselves as HR. So I sat down with a thudding heart that somehow quieted faster than expected.
He went on about MCO’s and basically summed up that it’s not us or our work but the changes going on across the state, and that our department just isn’t able to earn what it once was so cuts were being made. I readied myself with a deep breath, to hear exactly what severance and unemployment options would be available, to hear – as we’d heard with the other layoffs – that I’d be eligible for re-hire, and whatever other scripted things might have been allowed for them to tell me. On some level, I was kind of hoping for lay-off because I’d find something better, and I’d promote UnTapU like nobodies business in the meantime.
I half-listened to what he said until I heard him say “Fortunately for you, we have another position we’d like to offer you…” and told me I could effortlessly transition to another department with the same pay and benefits package. We’d been told at the beginning of the month that our department was taking a pay cut – and now I wouldn’t. I’ve always wondered about working in that department but was ambivalent about my ability to be objective in that role so here was a chance to try it out. And my evenings, often spent working with clients after school, would now be much clearer, because my focus wouldn’t be on kids getting out of school but helping parents who’d often be home during the day, available in mornings, or able to meet on lunch breaks.
All of this was good news, a relief, a better outcome than I had any right or hope of expecting. I was told it was all confidential because everyone needed to be talked to first, but soon the calls were coming in to discuss what was known and then an email giving us permission to discuss. Turns out it was 15 people, not 9, called in for this meeting, and only 4 of us were given the option (well it was take the job or you’ve basically resigned by Halloween, no severance or unemployment) to stay on with the company or one we’ve merged with.
Given the past several months, I knew I was a good candidate to get the ax. But somehow I wasn’t, and I ended up with no loss of my current pay, with an even better schedule possible with the families and the same flexibility I’ve been enjoying to make my own schedule with clients for them – while also being able to continue seeing clients privately as well, to grow UnTapu as I truly want to do.
So ya’ll tell me….coincidence, luck? Or did I succeed in realigning my energy system to dispel my fears, doubts, and feelings of desperation before that meeting so the universe could align with my positive energy for me to receive the best possible outcome out of such a bad situation? I’m inclined to see EFT as the “luck”. And I plan to keep spreading the word, building UnTapU to help everyone I can reach to Tap Into Empowerment so they can reach their goals, just as I am on my way towards reaching my own.
Happy Tapping!
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